Mistakes are essential.

Life is not about are we gonna do or not gonna do or mistake.
The mistakes are guaranteed!
We will make mistakes. Definately.

Life is about how do we deal with mistakes. A believer wont do a mistake twice. What is this supposed to mean? Meaning, when we make mistake, learn lesson! Repent and make sure that we will never repeat.

Every son of Adam sins. But the best among them is the one who repent after they sin.

I would like to share my personal life story here. I thought times before i decide to write it here.

This week, we celebrate eidil adha. So, we have a few dinners.. There is one eid dinner that we planned to make it happen at a friend's house. As it is an eid dinner, for sure we are having the dinner with Muslims. However, that dinner happens to be the other way than what have i aspected.

We arrived at the house and realize that the owner was not there, but his housemate was there.. However, he is a not-yet-Muslim.and came something in my head.. he invited us in. We stepped in. there were only 4 of us(female) and about 6 guys.. Creepy ofcourse! Entering the house, sit onthe sofa, chit chat a while and prepare to solah(prayer). We girls decided to perform separately from the guys so, we went up stairs, enter a room, suddenly we saw bottles of ,i dont know, but pretty sure those were wine! And we are about to perform solah in that room! I just cant believe it that i m there! Astaghfirullah.

Done with prayer, we went down and continue with the main Agenda.. Eat! Dinner time.. However, one of us decided to leave for some reason n now only 3 girls left. Huh.. Still shock with the bottle in that room and someone make a 'joke' by asking if any of te food is pork! -_- . Any idea? Ofcouse i got another shock! Alhamdulillah that it was only a joke. By the way, the owner of the house finally came.

Then we sat in the hall to have our dishes. And they suddenly decide to pick a movie, again this is an eid dinner and i have no idea why were they picking up a movie! Plus, the movie they picked was a movie that supposely not to be watched by a Muslim but now we are watching it together!!!!! Is this for real? I was about to voice out but unfortunately everyone seems like enjoying the movie! Again, why am i there?! Trying to think again.

So, i lay my back at the sofa and start to have negative thoughts and i started to regret that why am i not taking a good care of my ownself. We went to a guy's place without knowing who he really is.. That was the mistake..

Things getting worse when the adzan for isyak was stared to be heard but no one cares! They were still focusing to the movie without trying to pause or lower the audio! My bad to for not having the courage to voice it out! And guess what, they were still Watching it and no one cares to pray! I cant stand any longer! I wanted to leave! I m not belong there. More test was that we went to the house by riding someone, so we cant go back until that guy decide to leave. And now we Dont know how to tell him that we wanted to leave! So we stay! Huh.. Ofcourse we were sitting so uncomfortably waiting for them! After 2 hours only finally we successfully get out from that house!

Whoooohhhh.... Alhamdulillah! Really learned my lesson! and as we arrive home, i have no one to talk to. I dont know where can i share what i feel at the moment and i quickly took my wudhu and perform isya solah. Seriously, i was crying in the solah.. So many regression. then i took my bestfriend with me. The quran.

I continue at where i marked the page. I was reading surah Muhammad. I have no idea on what am i reading as i dont really understand Arabic but my tears were keep rolling down.. Then i read the translation.. I cried even harder. Go open the quran yourself and read what's written there. Especially from the verse 31 to the end.

I can feel how Allah is actually talking to me.. Subhanallah.
And on the very next day, i spent my day to watch Islamic lectures on you tube.. Really.. I know that i am doing my purification of heart. Tazkiyatun nafs. I listen about friend, about being different from the musyrikin and someother things.. Now i know where am i and i know what do i need to do!

I need to be firm! I have my own believe and want others to respect my deen. I dont care if people or even my bestfriend want to say anything or hate me for what am i doing to my deen.. I dont want to fit in myself into what s wrong.. Even if people is hating me, who cares? I am only Trying to please my own creator. Let them say that i am boring or different! Yes! I am trying to distinct myself from what s wrong.. Who cares if they think i m extreme, who cares! Allah is sufficient for me.. I rather losing my friend than losing Allah.. I am not here to sacrifice my believe for you but have no problem to sacrifice you for the sake of Allah.

And also, why should we change just because we want to enter the community? If we do, then, why are we asking the not-yet-muslims to be Muslim when we are actually trying to be like them? Think!

I love you, dear friend. But if this is how you behave, i am not afraid to lose you. Because i love Allah more.. If a friend to you is the one who will do everything with you, support you anyway, make you too smile all time, sorry i m not a good friend for you and i dont think of being like one.

I try to care, comfort and protecr you.. But when you are wrong, i ll say directly so we can get better. You too.. Just tell me if i m wrong.. I need that advice so desperately. Seriously.. but please just tell me what i should change according to Allah and not to you.. I mean.. If i am doing something that you dislike but you know Allah is having no problem with it, seriously, i am not interested to hear that.. But if you know Allah will get angry with me if i m continuing such things. Let me know!

Jazakumullahukhoir.

Kisah pengabdian Ibrahim alaihisalam.

Salam aidil adha..

Kita Semua tahu Raya qorban atau Raya haji ni disambut sempena peristiwa2 yg brlaku kpd nabi ibrahim.. Dan Allah x penah suruh hambanya buat sesuatu tnpa sbb.. Jd, tujuan smbut aidil adha ni adalah supaya Kita hayati Dan ambil pengajaran dri kisah nabi ibrahim alaihissalam..

Saya Nk share sikit ttg baginda..

Nabi ibrahim adalah nabi yg Betul2 berserah dri kpd Allah..apa sahaja arahan Allah, baginda buat..Klu Tgk balik spanjang hidupnya, mcm2 la yg trjadi.. Semua ujian itu, baginda lulus dgn jayanya..

Mula dgn ayahnya sndiri yg kafir, diugut bunuh oleh ayah nya sendiri.. Cuba Nk tegakkan kebenaran..Dibakar..doa agar dilindungi.*hasbunallah wani'mawakeel*.
Allah tolong. hijrah kat tmpat baru, Cuba dkwah Tp x diterima.. Hijrah lg .. Masalah pula dgn raja namrud..doa.. Allah tolong. Hijrah balik..lama Kahwin Tp x dikurniakan ank..x putus asa.. Berdoa agar Dpt anak soleh. kawin lg baru Dpt anak.. Dh dpat anak, diperintahkan pula utk tinggalkn anak Dan isteri dipadang pasir..jumpa sekali sekala je... Baginda taat.. X merungut.. X tanya.. Dan baginda x lupa utk berdoa.

Anak Dh besar, diperintahkan pula utk sembelih anak tunggalnya yg ditunggu 86 tahun baru Dpt..baginda akur jugak.. Nk sembelih dah.. Baru Allah ganti dgn binatang.

Ibrahim dgn anaknya bina kaabah..lps siap, doa supaya Allah terima baginda Dan anak sebagai hamba Allah yg berserah diri..supaya keturunannya juga berserah diri..

ganjaran apa yg nabi ibrahim a.s Dpt? Antaranya:

1. Dan Allah kata, "Kami telah mnjadikan engkau sbagai imam"
* sbb tu Allah suruh Muhammad s.a.w, utk ikut jejak langkah Ibrahim a.s dalam aspek pengabdian diri..
* waktu Ibrahim doa tu, baginda sdg berdiri diatas satu batu.. Tiba2 batu tu jd lmbut kejap n keras balik.. Dari situlah mana datangnya tapak kaki Ibrahim alaihissalam berdekatan dgn kaabah yg ada smpai hari ni..

2. Baginda pernah doa agar diselamatkan Dr org2 yg Nk bakar baginda..
- Allah perintahkan api tu jd tmpat yg paling selesa.

3. Baginda doa agar dpt anak soleh,
Ismail yg juga orang yg berserah diri.. Tak tanya byk bila ayahnya kata dpt mimpi agar sembelih dia..then,
Dpt nabi ishak sebagai anak kedua (hadiah Dr Allah)
-dapat anak sangat soleh..
*fakta: Semua nabi yg dihantar lps ibrahim, semuanya dari kalangan keluarganya..

4. ibrahim alaihissalam ditmpatkan Di langit ketujuh.( PALING dekat dgn ALLAH)

5. Semua benda yg Kita nk jeles dlm dunia ni, semua Ada pada keluarga ibrahim a.s..

Kekuasaan, harta? Lihat bgaimana Allah kurniakan kpd daud dah sulaiman alaihissalam.. Dr keturunan nabi ibrahim

Kebijaksanaan, kefasihan dlm berkata2? Ada pada Muhammad s.a.w. Dan nabi2 yg lain..

Kacak, mulia.. Ada pada nabi yusuf Dan byk nabi yg lain.. Semua Dari keturunan ibrahim..

*Sbb ibrahim selalu doa utk dirinya, keluarganya, keturunannya Dan umatnya..

Antara pengajaran:

Klu Tgk org lebih sikit Dr Kita, jgn pandang je.. Doala.. Dan usaha kearah tu... Nabi Ibrahim sentiasa berdoa Dan yakin. *Ingat pertolongan Allah itu sangat dekat.. :)

Mmg x mudah Nk Dpt apa yg Kita Nk.. Lihat sahaja apa yg dilalui oleh nabi ibrahim.. Dan akhirnya, dikurniakan kejayaan oleh Allah yg besar dari ujian2 yg dilalui..

* sesungguhnya janji Allah itu benar.. Jgn cpt putus asa.
Byk ujian, tanda Allah sayang.. Bykkan Berdoa.. Sabar Dan bersyukur! :)

Dan Allah x saja2 letak kisah ni dlm alquran Klu bukan untuk kita ambil pengajaran Dan apply.. Jadi? :D

Wallahualam..

Wasalam...

Hows life..

A very common question i get as i started my life in the united states..

Amazing! MasyaAllah.. Only Allah knows how grateful am i to be here..indeed, why should be proud living in the non Islamic country?

I cant describe what happened to me like perfectly. Atleast this is my journal for me to record a wonderful chapter of my life... I came to the states.. For one reason.. I want to learn! Learn others cultures, learn new life, learn about people, learn Islam better, learn what life is all about, learn the things that i should.. It is obligated for every muslims to seek knowledge.. That is why i decided to further my life here.. Study! Formal and informally.

Experiences... Too many that i cant explain.. But lets try.. :)

Bismillahirahman arrahim..

I came here.. With a additional piece of cloth on my head that covers my hair to my chest that makes people look at me very differently..fully covered from top to toe except my hands and my face.. I knew these would happen...

As i reached here.. I tried to get myself into the community.. It is hard at first.. It really was.. Plus, with my bad English.. How do i communicate with the people here? I can understand them very easily but my grammars n speaking isn't that good. That makes me hard to get a friend..

However, just because Allah loves me so much, i get mentors for my faststart program.. One named pooja and one more is Rayan.. ALHAMDULILLAH, Rayan is a Muslim lady, in junior year.. She helped me a Lot.. She showed me the masjid, she helped me to get involve in society, she is really helpful.. Now, she is trying to put me in an Islamic class.. InsyaAllah.. May Allah reward her with blessings.. Ameen..

ALHAMDULILLAH, even i am in the America, i go to masjid every week.. There i meet Muslims like family.. Speechless.. They are all so friendly.. Subhanallah.. Even we never met before, we care like a family.. That is one of the power of brotherhood in Islam.. alhamdulillah every week (usually on Saturday) my soul ll have its food.. There is Islamic lecture in the masjid.. I love it.. :) i can gain knowledge!!!

That is not the only source of islamic knowledge that i have here.. ALHAMDULILLAH, i joined online usrah.. With my malaysian friends... Not bad.. I like it.. We have taddabur session..to know more about the holy book Quran and the messages in it. Seriously, it is essential to learn it. My usrah, usually held on Sunday.. My usrah mates:
sabrina - temple university
Mira - penn state Erie
alin - Iowa state uni
Sarah - state uni of new York
mimi -penn state uni park.
Jazakumullahukhoir

Not to forget, my favorite team, Muslim student association. Every week, the weekly meeting is my favorite event that i ll be waiting for.. A very active and fantastic club for me.. I like the people a lot and i like it when it comes to the controversial issue discussion.. Everyone speak and give their opinions and points based on the quran n hadith n also personal opinion.. the Participation of non Muslim in the discussion is also one of that makes the discussion fun! :) may Allah guide them.. they asks questions and that is the time to thicken our faith with Islam... It makes u thinks n u ll find knowledge to put in words very nicely.. At the same time, that makes your belief even better!

ALHAMDULILLAH.. What a bless..

Also, i have a friend, a non Muslim friend that always ask me about Islam.. He asks why Muslims need to pray, why cant touch, and the best question is, how prayer give me strength? :) nice.. May Allah give him guidance.. I know he was just asking and not thinking of reverting. It is okay.. As long as he is interested to learn about religion, even he is actually now trying to learn about his own religion, i m giving him the support. He told me that he is now trying to get himself closer to god.. It is okay if he thinks his god and our god is different, as long as people have the awareness to go back to the religion, it is a good thing for me.. At least they don't live life just to enjoy and party.. :D insyaAllah he ll find the truth.

long story.. That is not all, and that is not even half of it.. still having stories about other things..

Lets talk about myself... What have i gained for my own?

I gained new spirit! ALHAMDULILLAH. Here, no one is trying to put me down.. I can do what i want and don't need to think about whats in others mind.. I can speak English as i wish regardless my grammar mistakes.. No one ll laugh at me! Americans know that English is not my first language and they understand if we make mistakes..

Also, i ve gained my confidence little by little.. MasyaAllah. When i need to deal with officers or who ever, i can just step forward and have nothing to worry about.. I am now a brave girl! Not a coward anymore. ALHAMDULILLAH.. even actually i am forcing myself to do it.. I am satisfied with that.. I v made an improvement!!!!

And, i am now an outgoing girl.. I ll do anything when i want something.. As long as it'll not bringing the anger of Allah, i ll do it, insyaAllah :) I dont know why, but i am so eager to give a try to something new..
For example, i don't know where do i get the strength to give my name for the election of the Muslim student association's officer, but i did. And biidznillah, i got a position as a treasurer of the club.. Frankly said, that was really a big achievement for me as i am the only first-year student that is holding a position as the officer in the club.. The other positions are holded by third and forth year students.. Really hope i can contribute to the society... Seriously, who knows that i can get a position in a club in America? Shocking for me..

Not to forget, here i learned more to be independent. My housemate and i pay our bills by ourselves. We actually tried to seek help from seniors but as Allah knows best, He wants us to learn by our own.. This week was a week of pressure .. So many things to be done that includes exams, quizzes, bill payments, money transfer and many else...

And most important thing, i am learning to be grateful and faithful . We entered this house, where we stay right now, on august 17, nothing was in it except for the stove, oven, n refrigerator.. Only! Not even a chair or desk or fan.. but now,, we have all the furniture for a complete house.. From a dining table to the television.. And most of them we get for free! Allahu akbar.. It is really true that Allah really can give whenever he wants to.. All u need to do is to work for it, pray and believe! N he ll suffice you more than what u ve aspected.. Really!

I guess,, that all for now, hope there is tomorrow.. or else, pray for me.. Forgive me .. Assalamualaikum :)