Why Travel?

I always trying to figure what life is all about. Thinking about life is somewhat complicated.

Those are not easy questions. There is not solid answer for that. But since I am very into religion and history, learning those made me think a lot and if possible, i would try to relate everything with my life.

Recalling to the story of Moses, a prophet. I remember him went to mount Sinai at one point in his life. There, he got his revelation, the 10 commandment. Muhammad, at one point in his life, went to the Mount Hira’. He gets his revelation, the Quran. Also the story of Buddha, in his journey, he got the enlightenment. They all went in to wilderness to know the truth. Wilderness is the place I know I need to be in to figure out what I want in life and what life is all about. I believe, there are so many things the nature hold and keep them secret.

I found all this connection really interesting. especially when we know some religion encourage us to travel and even there are obligatory ones. In Islam, we are obligated travel and go on a journey to Mecca, the Hajj-pilgrimage. This is the same case to Christians. some of them still do the pilgrimage to Camino De Santiago in Spain to find the truth.

So I had this dream long ago. But I am trying to learn about how to make it possible. Travel? Sounds fun to most people but sounds hard to me. I know visiting places is easy. Just get a transportation and bam, you are in it. But traveling means getting the opportunity to look at different places not just to tell everyone else that I was there, but solely for myself. To figure out what I want and what I need to learn from nature.

I know life is short and I know everyone was born equal. But one thing about myself is, I don’t want to be equal. I want to be different from the majority of people. I want to be me. I want to be able to feel life, not just run through it. Because as far as I see, I feels like most people have different dreams in their life. Sometimes when I ask, they are being truthful about their dream, but most of them, just want to sound good about it.

That’s why I want to make sure I don’t fool my own self. I just want to be honest and want recognize the problem: I am stupid. I don’t know anything about life. Therefore, I need to figure it out. Yes, I know theoretically, My purpose in life is to worship God. But Why, How and What if I don’t?

Sometimes, yes, I feel really motivated to do it, but there are time when I feel like I need some activation pills to make me keep doing it. So I choose travelling. Travelling into nature give me things and time to reflect. The beauty in front of my eyes when I was in Antelope Canyon, Horseshoe Bend, Grand Canyon, The Arches and other places, Oh God, Indeed, I should not deny. Surely, You are Almighty and the Best Creator.

These are just some of the places I get the chances given by Him to look at. And I thank Him for this. If this is just the world, what would paradise looks like? I know how much I had sinned, yet, He gave me the chance to walk on His Earth, to see through the eyes, the miracles, Should I not feel guilty and grateful at the same time? Sometimes, I feels like I shouldn’t given this kind of gift, I did not deserve this kind of love, but I forgot, He is indeed the most Merciful.

Furthermore, remember I wrote earlier about how traveling is hard to me? I planned this trip and

It was difficult and amazingly enough, I don’t know where I get the gut to actually even think that I am capable to drive and go through all the hardship. But indeed, I planned, God planned. And after all He is the Best Planner. In God We Trust! :’)

*thanks to all my travel partners and also the other driver, I know I burdened you. I am sorry. May God bless all of us. Ameen

Reintroduce yourself

Some people said, “Don’t judge me from the past. I don’t leave there anymore.”

True. People change. I, myself know how much I have changed although change doesn’t always means progress. So, I personally don’t really like it when people look at me the same way they see me last year or even three months ago. People change. Everyone changes. We change our mind. We change our intention, we change the way we dress, we change the way we speak and so on.

But what’s lacking actually is, we need to know what have changed. What have we edited or improvised? Sometimes we have made a conscious decision in making a change. But sometimes, we just don’t behave like that any more. We first need to notice it.

Have you ever felt like you don’t know yourself anymore? That is because you didn’t pay enough attention to your own body and soul. Don’t let yourself to be the last person to notice the change. Why? Because you will be in time when people treat you differently than they usually do, and you get upset about it. Then, you start to whine and complain on how much people had change but little did you realize that the one who make them change is you. You blame everyone but your own self.

Ever heard of a phase saying, “ If you want to change the world, begin with your own self”? Yup. IF you notice anything surround you behave differently, don’t forget to evaluate the one in the mirror.

But that is not what I want to focus on. I want to write about introducing yourself. Remember how i said that we actually change very often? Just don’t expect people to immediately recognize. You need to bring the attention. Tell them who you are now. For example, If you used to love coffee, and now not anymore, tell them. OR if you were before a social person but now you want to stay in your own world, tell them. If you were strong and now, are feeling very weak, tell them.

People will make assumptions. They will assume that you are the old you. But no one knows that you actually are having a tough moment and you aren’t that strong anymore, in which you need some support. Therefore, tell them. Yes, you wish people are sensitive enough to notice, but their world is much more than just you.

So, this post is for everyone who are going through hardship in their lives and had changed something in themselves. And also who wanted other people to know and understand what is in their heart. By all means, tell the world. Speak up!

Reintroduce yourself.