Allah is always with the as sobiroon

in the darkness of the midnight, i try to move my fingers typing this keyboard...
with my tears rolling down drop by drop..
i have no idea to stop them..
i know,, i wrote too much about my life's test..
perhaps people may see me as a person who dont know how to appreciate life,,
perhaps people see me as a person who always look the probleems more than thanking Allah for the blessings
i wont blame them.. i swear, i wont..
they have their right on how they want to think.
and so do i,,

for me,, its not wrong to complain,, i mean,, share something with others..
and i am sharing this with Allah..
maybe some of you may move your hands and scratch your initchy head,,
its better for me to take wudoo'and sujud to Allah if i am saying that i am sharing my problems with allah
but,, dont forget,,  thinking for a minute is better that praying for an hour..
i am spending my time to think  and to dive deep into my heart,,
about how do i take the tests?

dont take this easy,, its closely connected to imaan,,
if i always blame Allah for all this,,, i am no longer a mukmin
perhaps,, i am no longer a muslim..
because we are talking about qadaánd qadar..
if i cant accept all this,, my imaan does not completed.!
so, i need to think well about this matter,,
as my fingers hopping around on this keyboard,
my brain is working, i am thinking..

reflecting anger is easy,, but controlling it is nice.
sometimes doing easy this just drag us to a more complicated situation
but if we try to do and get the nice one,, perhaps we'll happy in the end.

i believe, every single human have their problems.
but, few of them act wisely while facing the problems.
its unfair to compare, a person who do have problem and always reflect their stress n anger to others, and
the person who also has problems but try to face it quietly and wisely
obviously the first person wont spent much time thinking bout this problems compared to the second.
people may says, the first one is stronger as he just go on with his life without thinking longer bout the problem. n, people may says, the second is weaker as always regret and sad with the tests

but,, why dont we look from different angle of view. ???  actually, the first one is selfish!!! because of his problem, he want everyone to feel the stress as well.. he cant hold it by him self,, so he is the one who weak!!
when facing hardness or difficulties,, he will put the blame on others.. ya,, thats the easiest way..
but not to forget the second is the nicest way,,, ya, its hard and takes time.. but its better for us to practice the noble ways than applying dirty way.. innallahu maal assobirun.. :)