think! what life is all about...

i dont know why my mind cant stop thinking about this thing..
i just dont know what to do..
i want to ask some one,, but i dont know who should i ask..
i want to be strong.. i dont know how,
i ve tried, and still trying
i know,, Allah gives some thing surely for reason.. no doubt
but i just need more strength!

i cant stop my tears from rolling down,
i m tired of crying] i just dont know why, but i am still crying..
i love tests because it makes me refer back to Allah as i believe no one else can help me
i love crying as i makes me know, that Allah always give me some way to release my stress
i love sitting alone because i can remind myself to Allah

just that,, i am afraid if i am not strong enough,,
the test make my imaan thinner
i am afraid if i am not that strong,
my emotions may control me more than my rational
and if i am not strong enough,
syaitan may interupt my mind away from remembering allah
and makes me do what islam prohibit!

therefore, i guess, i dont need Allah to reduce my burden
but i really need Allah gives me more and more strength in handling those things
i know, Allah had plan everything just nice at the right time, the right place.
i believe, i believe and i strongly believe

i dont mind crying all the time
but i mind if i cry just because i follow what i want
i need to punch my self that my life here,
is just for awhile and not permanent
so, why should i think the tests are forever?
stupid me if i keep feeling weak just because those 'small' test
stupid me if i reduce my good deeds just because use the time to keep thinking and regretting the tests

what if i stop think about my tests
and stop my tears now!
try to think, what is life is all about!
life is indeed so hard
but giving up is not an option

again,, what is life really all about?
its about worshiping Allah!!
its too short to waste
and too long to quit
remember,, i dont want to regret forever and permanently just because this short life right?
dont you?

so,, what playing in your mind?
what makes you weak and
what makes you run off lane??
life is simple if we know why are we living
and just do how islam ask to..

wipe your tears and gain the spirit
to continue and end this life with no regret!
insyaAllah..