everything happen for reason..

asslaamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh....

first of all,, i would like to beg you to ignore my grammar n spelling..

lately i really  stress n depressed as my place here in this house in this family really test my imaan n strength..
again,, about my family,, if you dont feel like concern bout this matter, i really hope you stop your reading now at this moment because u ll get annoyed..  seriously, i am enough with this problem,,  i cant stand to hold n keep this alone.. i really need someone to share with.. besides crying on the sajaddah, i need to burst this out...  i ve tried to not thinking too much of this but i cant.. i come again and again.. i m so tired of this...

but,, alhamdulillah,, allah loves me,, All the praise to Allah!  He never let me floating alone.. He always give me the answer to my questions..  regarding my family problem,,  again, i cant stand to face my mum,,, she was successfully make me a person with lack of confidence.. seriously,, i made it.. congratulation to her..  ya i may sound sacarstic.. but tis is the only sentence that i manage to came out with.. basically, my problem is about my mum who always get mad to us,, and the most favorite target to her is me.. everything i do, never satisfy her.. i have no idea about the reason,,  throwing things, slamming door n use harsh word are some of her acts that i can no longer stand..

about the answer to my question marks in my mind, i suddenly watch tis malay film..if i m not mistake,, its title is KASHAF IMANI.. perhaps u ve watch it too.. i u havent,, i suggest u to watch it.. the messages are clear...  okay let me briefly explain about the synopsis..
basically its about kashaf who the son of a single mother who have no dad.. but he do has sister by the same mum but his younger sister do have dad.. simply said,, he is a illegal child.. three of the stay in a flat n one of their neighbour is amani.. amani lives with her grandma.. amani n her grandma are so called practicing muslims.. i mean,, they do pray n do good deeds but unfortunately imany dont wear hijjab.. n,, amani has sixth sense since she woke up from comma when both of he parents died..  ok,, back to kashaf, kashaf was lack of love by his mum.. him mum always treat him badly,, not as kind to his sister.. so,, kashaf felt dissapointed.. also, his sister was actually a bad lady.. their mum dont trust his even he said the truth..  until one day, her mum ask him ko get out from their house.. so, he do so.. he went out.. then, he called his best friend to talk n share tis sadness..  during the talk, one of a gangster went nea to kashaf n tried to kill him.. the knife was hit to kashaf's stomach..bleeding.. kashaf felt down.. over night, he was there.. do not woke up.. until the next morning, he opened his eyes n tried to stand,, he dont feel the pain anymore.. he rush to his house,, he saw imani.. imanni saw him with blood on his shirt.. imani asked why,, but he said he need to get home,,, he went home.. enter his house saw his mothe,, the arrange his words asking forgiveness from his mum.. tears rolled down when he realize that her mother dont bother him at all.. he cried n appologize again and again.. suddenly, he heard his mum talk alone.. saying that she missed him.. he was puzzled.. he was there but his mum was like cant see him,,, suddenly, his best friend came to their house telling his mum that they saw, kashaf's dead body.. now kashaf realized that he was not a human that can be seen.. but he is only the soul.. thats y his mum cant see him.. he dont know what to do.. he cried.. i really need to say sorry to his mum before he get back to allah,, so, he asked a help from imani since only imani can see him..after discussing a few things, imani decided to help kashaf..  as his mum was stressed out , his sister created a new problem, she follow some one that she dont realize that is a drug seller. it get worse when kashaf noticed his sister follow his murder.. he cant let it be.. kashaf again tried to ask for help from imani to go n  see his sister accompanied by his best friend.. they went to meet his sister, unfortunately, his sister ignore their reminder...

he cant do anything.. so, he focus to seek forgiveness from his mother... at hospital,, the nurse gave kashaf's stuffs back to his mother... now the mother realize that kashaf dont lie at all,, when he was asked to pay the car payment, he did,, but his mother dont believe him at all before and that makes his thrown out by his mother.. now his mother had made a huge mistake.. and that makes he really understand the meaning of regret! kashaf's soul was there in the hospital.. he saw his mum crying like hell.. he who really loves his mum so much, doesnt want his mum to regret over her life, thus, ask imani tell his mum about this,, about however bad his mum was, he still take her as his mum.. he loves her..  imani done.. imani told everything.. kashaf finally curved a smile on his lips.. so do her mother even her tears doesnt stop rolling down.. she was released.. she started to appriciate her son.. even it was quite late.. but atleast she does.. kashaf's soul went to imani to thanks her for everything,, but imani reminded kashaf that everything were nothing to do with her..  everything was planned by Allah.. the almighty.. so,, thank Him..  during their conversation ,, kashaf's soul started to disappear slowly.. they have no idea about whats happening.. kashaf think, its his time.. so, he accept.. then, kashaf's body on the haspital bed started to breath terribly..nurse was called n best friend of kashaf tried to contact his sister so she has time to see hi for the last time.. however, her sister does want to... but ask her mum to pray for her early death so that they may meet in the grave,, so stupid of her playing with allah's faith, accident occured and she died. while his brother suddenly openned his eyes. started to breath normaly after stop breathing for a while before no word came out from everyone besudes ALHAMDULILLAH..

i wrote this long story for reason.. i dont know, why,, but i hope this thing may happen to me as well.. i know its wrong to pray for bad thing but i can see the good impact to everyone.. kashaf started to apreciate his life and wanted to stop doing illegal things... he was give by Allah a second chance to repent.. while his mother,, started to notice her mistake before... dont punish people as her will.. his best friend,,  also,, learned  alot from the situation,, became a better person n believe, death may come whenever in which way that we dont know.. imani,, started to wear hijjab... she know, the ability to see soul is nikmat from Allah,, so,, why much her betray Allah??  

#everything happen for reason.. so, dont think why we need to face it,, think about why Allah test us that way? it must be something that we need to fix.. do it before its too late.. dont let the word regret blacken our life or our soul..