What happen, dear?

Oh how hearts can fluctuate? 

I was sad those weeks and then i get some strength but once i am about to stand again, life pushes me so hard.

Dear me, 

Why are you so weak? I thought you already took your time to recover, you pledge to smile again! You said you want to be a strong girl again. You said you just want to live as if there is no tomorrow. 

No matter how life knock you hard, you want to keep being kind and patient. You said, no need to take those harsh words very seriously. You said you just want to stop focusing on those problems. You said you want to pay more attention on becoming whom you want to be. You said you want to accept these challenges because you know Allah is testing you.

You said you want to be patient. You said you want to be patient. Yes, patience. You said, though no one could help you, you will always remember that ALLAH KNOWS. you said you want to stop focusing on your problems. You said you want to start counting  your blessings. You said you want to be stronger.

You said you you don't want to regret. You said you want to take this test with open heart so you will get the reward in the here after. You said you want Allah to be please with you. You said you want to be grateful. You said you want to have faith in Him. You said you want to trust Him. You said you want to change!

You said you don't want to waste the reward. You said you don't want to ruin your ramadhan, you said you want to be sincere. You said you can do this. You said you want to teach yourself about life. You said you will never get upset. You said you know that a believer will never get upset. You said you want to be positive and optimistic.

But what happen? What happen? With all your effort, you just want to give up? 

Stay strong, dear! Allah knows :')